C is Circus

When we were young the world around us was new and exciting, as we get older we start to lose that view on life. Yet as a parent we to experience that joy and wonderment through our children.

The One and Only

The Wonder

The Amazement 

The Talent

#43 & #44

Tuesday July 5, 2011

Dear Baby Boy,
As I write this you're in your room trying to fall asleep. You used to fall right asleep when we laid you in your crib, but for the last six weeks it has become a struggle. It all started when you had your surgery, we still do not know if it's because you are afraid to fall asleep or if it's because you learned new tricks. The same week you had your surgery you learned how to roll over really quick and sit up, a couple weeks later you learned how to stand up. Every night you stand up in your crib and cry these huge alligator tears. It is the hardest thing to see you go through night after night. All I want to do is run into you room sweep you into my arms and rock you to sleep, but then there is the part of my that wants you to learn how to be independent and learn how to sooth yourself. For now your Daddy and I compromise every 3-4 minutes we go into your room and give you a hug or rub your back. After 20-30 minutes you will fall asleep. I hope you know how hard it is to let you cry, there has been a couple nights were I will lay on your floor and hold your hand through the bars on your crib. I loved doing it too, you would hold my hand and play with my fingers and slowly fall asleep. You are just too smart cause now you roll over pull down the bumper and laugh at me and think it's a game, so no more of that

Love you Always and Forever
Mommy

4th of July

And I'm proud to be an American,

where at least I know I'm free.

And I won't forget the men who died,

who gave that right to me.

Lee Greenwood

Are you Looking At Me

Enjoying the Prade 

Cheesing It up

Double Trouble!

Off to Wonderland

 Pierre and Briannahs Wedding

June 26, 2011

On a perfectly warm Saturday day in June, guest arrived at Poppa and Melissa's house in Castro Valley, Ca, were they took the leap down the rabbit hole to a land of love and fantasy to be known as Alices Wonderland.

"Begin at the beginning and go on to the end and then Stop" - the King

I ask Briannah what made her choose Alice and wonderland for a theme, and she simple told me that her and Pierre love to drink a lot of tea, it is a nightly ritual that they both hold dear. I adore how something so small could turn into such a wonderful themed wedding.

Family came from all over the country to help these two transform their Grandparents backyard into their own utopia. Plants were placed and planted with care, decorations were hung in just the right manner, every little detail was thought about and set up with loving hands.

This wedding held a special place in my heart, Briannah is like a cousin to me. When I was younger Briannah would hang out with Melissa and I, looking up to what her big cousins were doing and mimic it whether it was good our bad. I am so happy to say that I got to watch her grow up and on this day I got watch this couple promise their love for each. They took a vow to devote to each other love through thick and thin. It was truly a magically day, not only for the Bride and Groom but for the guest as well. We are all so lucky to be able to share in their special day

The next generation of Trouble

Blake, Aj Julian
Melissa, mine and Steffanie's Sons

Exploring the California Acadamy of Science

 One of the joys about living in the Bay Area is all of the amazing places and things to do at our finger tips. On this particular day we journeyed into San Fransisco to visit the California Academy of Science.

We left the hot dry weather of the suburbs and drove into the city, we could feel the tempter drop and soon realized that we did not back enough warm cloth. Luckily the baby had a sweater and a blanket, so he got bundled up for the short walk through Golden Gate Park to the museum.




We meet up with my dear Big Sis Denise and her wonderful family and Boyfriend at the entrance. Everyone was really excited to see each other and to meet the baby for the first time.  I don't get to see my Big very often but when I do it always makes my day. I was so lucky to have found such a wonderful friend and just love spending time with her and her family. Three years ago she meet Paul her AMAZING boyfriend. I love watching the two of them together, they are so cute and you can just tell how much in love they are.



Aaron and I have been to the museum once before and we both Love the rain forest exhibit. They have done such a beautiful job of putting together the Living Rain Forest you "Step inside a living 4-story rain forest, where dripping water sets the beat for a symphony of croaking frogs and chirping birds." You enter at the floor of the forest "and climb into the tree-tops of Costa Rica to find free-flying birds and butterflies." The child in us all came out in the forest, it is amazing to see this beautiful butterfly fluttering around. Their colors and size range from dull brown to vibrant pinks and blue and small as a couple inches to as larger as your whole hand.  You feel as if you are taking a mini vacation and are transferred to a whole new world with out ever getting on a plane. "Finally, descend in a glass elevator into the Amazonian flooded forest, where an acrylic tunnel allows you to walk beneath the catfish and arapaima that swim overhead."


 I love seeing the wonderment and excitement in Aj eyes as a big Catfish swims overhead or when a yellow tropical fish comes up to say hi. I can never say thank you enough to the people who make museums like these possible. With out them we would never be able to pet a star fish or see an albino Alligator swim around. The love and dedication that the employees of the California Science Academy bring to our experience is priceless and very much appreciated

#42

Tuesday June 21, 2011

Dear Aj,
What a week! We got some great news about your tumor, we found out that the tumor is a Mature Teritoma which is non cancerous. We are not out of the woods quite yet, for the next couple week we will be watching your blood levels really closely.

As always life goes on and you keep growing and developing into who you are to become. On Sunday your Daddy found you standing up in your crib just like a big boy. This is just one of the ways that you are transforming in front of my eyes. You are demanding more and more solid foods, purees that used to be your favorite you just cant be bothered. You are loving finding the new textures and taste of solids. You are letting me know the foods that you do not like, but Mommy is persistent and I refuse to let you be a picky eater. You have become quite the little mover and shaker, you are crawling all over the place exploring your new world, you are so proud of your self when you pull your self up to standing.

As always everyone is infatuated with you. When you saw your doctor they all commented on how you look like the Gerber Baby, your Daddy has been trying to talk me into putting you into modeling maybe you do have career in your future. only time will tell

Today we had to go and get your blood drawn. You were such a brave little boy, you had your pacifier and your ipod ready and you only cried once! I was so proud of you.

I will love you for Always
Mommy

Nearing the end of our Journey

We met with Aj's Oncologist on Friday and had a very positive meeting. She broke down all of Aj's test results for us. Here are the cliff notes:  Aj has a Pure Mature Teratom, which is great! The tumor was benign and the doctors were confident that the tumor didn't spread. I can't explain how relived we were to hear the confident in the Doctors voice as she explained to us the good news. The one thing that did concerned her was that Aj's AFP went up, not down. She reassured me that this could be normal but we may want to be a little bit more aggressive with our monitering.

AFP is tricky because babies tend to have a elevated levels to about six to eight months of age, doctors are finding that sometime it can take a child up to one year for levels to drop into normal range.  The reason why we keep mentioning Aj's AFP and why we are watching it so  carefully is because AFP can be used to detect certain types of cancer and liver problems.  Kaiser says that "Normal" levels are 0-15, Aj's last AFP test was 30.

We have taken Aj's AFP test for the last 4 weeks and his number have been 35-30-25-30. The raise could just be his little body doing its normal thing, BUT after everything that we just went through I wold prefer to overly cautious than sorry and so do the doctors. We will be checking his levels for the next 3 weeks as well as getting an ultra sound of his liver.

So all in all, I have to say that I think we had some wonderful Appointments and came out very hopeful that we can put this behind us and move on.

Thank you for everyone's prayers. I will make sure and let everyone know in the next months or so when we know for sure that we are out of the woods. But for now we are very happy with what we have in front of us.