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| You tried to make it to Midnight, but bed was calling your name |
Happy New Years Baby Boy!
You rang in the New Year with 7 of your best friends. Your very best friend Kairi was here and youplayed the night away, finally going to bed at 10:00pm. We put both of you to bed at the same time, you in your crib and Kiari in the portacrib. The next morning you woke and Kiari had gone home to her own crib. You kept pointing to the crib and walking over to it and looking inside for Kairi.
I have mention before that you have a love for music. For your birthday you got a drum filled musical toys, your favorite part of the gift was the 2 drum sticks and the drum itself. Somehow, somewhere your Daddy was able to get you a full mini drum set (a kick drum, a tom, a snare and a crash) You can really wail on that thing. I love seeing how happy you are when you play on it, but I think I may have to invest in a good set of ear plugs
A couple days ago I thought you walked up to me and said "Hi" I said no that is not what I heard, but no sure enough as the days went on there it was again "Hi" and it was just the cutest "Hi" I have ever heard. Then as I was leaving this morning I was packing up my bag, you look over your shoulder to me and said "bye-bye" and then went back to watching you show. When Daddy picked you up today from, he called and told me that you were the door man at school today and said "bye-bye" to everyone as you left
I love our life together and am very proud of myself for learning how to find the balance between working and being a Mom. I know that we do not spend all day together, but I have realized that it is okay as long as the time we do spend together is focused on what is important...you! Today though was one of those days when my heart string are pulled at a little bit. I saw you for a very brief couple minutes as I was walking out the door for work. I was all set to pick you up tonight after work and then take you to a networking party, but your Daddy was able to get off work early, I took that time to work late and then head over to the party. By the time I made it home you were already asleep. These are the nights that I dislike, these are the days were it is hard for me to work. Every cloud has a silver lining and our silver lining is that I make myself be 100% present when we are together. There are plenty of days when you and I will be off for 4 or 5 days straight and I do find myself on facebook or watching tv. I have learned that I am not bad for working, that I am not neglegting you, but maybe just the opposite. I am a better Mommy because of it. Days like these are still hard, but I am looking forward to this Friday when we have off and we get to do something specail.
I love you with all my heart and will always be here for you
Love,
Mommy
